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Wednesday, May 11, 2005
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《单恋》 娟著

单恋可以是快乐,让人像找到了前进的目标也可以让人失去了前进的目标,动力,是痛楚的开始。单恋是如此的发人深省,如此的刺痛人心。好痛,是不知所措的痛。我没有错,你也没有错,那么到底是谁的错呢。。。?

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他没有强壮的身躯却也有着宽厚的肩膀。。。他没有俊俏的脸孔却有着让我倾倒的笑容。。。
我和他是同班同学,和他总有说不完的话题。他把我当妹妹般照顾,在他身旁总觉有种安全感。他曾说:“你还真可爱,说的话做的事总能带给我欢笑”。于是,我总是装疯卖傻,做些无厘头的事,只为博他一笑。呵呵。。。我还真傻。。。

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朋友总是取笑他和我的好朋友,晓熙 ‘有一腿儿’。他自己也对晓熙很好,让大伙儿怀疑他是否真的喜欢晓熙。每每问他:“你真的喜欢晓熙吗?”他却总以开玩笑的口吻回答:“是啊!哈哈!”。当朋友取笑他和晓熙在一起时,我总陪着一块儿玩闹。“哇!那么好,帮她买水,又不见得有我们的份。。。”然后淘气的眨眨眼。他却回应道:“当然啦!她和你们不一样嘛!哈哈!”。我感觉心像一下子跌进了谷底。欢笑背后是无声的哭泣。。。

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某天,和晓熙通话时得知他得早上六点半抵达学校。第二天,我便早上五点十五分就起了身只为和他搭同班车。果然,我看到他了。他问我为何那么早去学校,我一慌,竟回答“我起得太早”。。。

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他的生日快要到了。我特地作了一张卡并准备写一封信给他。好想让他看到我的用心,好想让他听到我心碎的声音,好想让他知道我快要窒息了。然而,我却没有勇气让他知道,害怕他会因此和我有了距离。我提着笔,皱着眉,担心从字里行间会透露出我对他的爱恋。写了一封又一封的信,结果一封也没寄出去。不是斩钉截铁地对朋友说:“我不会喜欢他的!”吗?我到底在忙什么。。。我的心好乱。。。

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当手机响起,亮起灯时,我总飞奔地去查看他是否回应了我的简讯。我的心情被他的每一个简讯牵动着,时儿开心得睡不着,时儿哭得累了睡着。。。

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某天回家途中,看到他在体育课时和晓熙一同在跑道上奔跑。好美的画面啊。。。我笑了可为何泪水模糊了双眼。。。我独自向巴士车站奔去,心里只想快点躲到被窝里哭泣。然而,还未到家,眼泪就不争气的夺眶而出了。。。

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单恋让我尝到了撕心裂肺的痛,像被一根又一根的针插进心头,痛,已麻木。我已决定不要深陷于痛苦的爱情漩涡里,要在全身伤痕累累之前逃离。。。


Yesh~ i like Bop b4....did alot of silly things... Well...above is nt the true story la....bt it does convey how i feel at tt moment. This essay was written during tt moment when i will do all the silly things jus to make him happy. haha... tinkin back...it's realli memorable. I nvr nvr nvr tot i wld secretly like anione first. I a;wayz have tis tinking tt the gal shouldnt make the first move. Well...i haf been kipin it as a secret so it's nt considered as makin a first move....still...i nvr nvr wanna like anione whom i noe the heart aint wif me....i noe it will b v miserable....yet i fallen into it~`haha~so Yup~~tt is the v 1st time i an lian anione~~hence....no matter how the story ends up to b.....it is still an unforgettable memory:) Having tt said......i still wldnt wanna try it once more time~~ it realli does hurts~~ How abt u guyZ? haVe u all like anione secretly b4? Did ani silly things jus to make him/her happy or get near him/her?

How's the ending like? hmm......i will write it when i m free~~:)

Hope u all like the story. Personally...i prefer tis story den the previous 1 i post. U?



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