-DIFFERENCES- *~DIFFERENCES BTW FRENZ~* Note: Dawn tot i was a les aft readin tis post!!!! hahahaha~~ I wasnt a les la~~ i m v straight! (my eng wasnt gd...was wonderin can gals use the word straight aso....or it oni applies to the guyz?). Anw~~G was jus one of my best frenz in jc~~ She treated me as her best frenz 2~~ n we shared secrets n all~~ Bt sad to sae......the differences btw us made it hard fer the frenzship to con't. Frenzship as in we wun b as close as b4...we dunnoe hw to tok to each other animore~~`
Guessed i've mentioned abt tis b4. The difference btw G n me. We are like from 2 diff worlds yet some similar thinkings to hold us tgt as gd frenz~Or probably.....during the golden times of our frenzship...we emphasize more on the similar pts. We know there is a big difference in our values bt we nvr feel it yet cuz we are engrossed with the same concerns n opinions we had(eg. relationships n all). It's alwayz tis kindda topics tt linked the gals up~~ no? Yar....so when both of us no longer haf any probs abt relationship since we have both chose to let go...our oni similar pt was gone. Suddenly.............we felt a big gap btw us. Suddenly....i began to tink abt the things tt she said and wat others told me. Suddenly.....i began to feel tired of accomodating to her character, to her values. She is the dominatin kind.......to accomodate her.......i cldnt b truthful.........i jus gotta "obey".......i cant retaliate when i disapproved of her behaviour~~ i felt cheateD~~ yesh~~ cheated~~ cheated by myself~ I felt restrained~~ i was tired~~~ I saw a even bigger change in her aft she started gg clubbing~~ Nt tt clubbing was wrong~~ bt i heard she smoked...she gt drunk... Nt tt smokin n drinkin is wrong........bt my values dun allow me to....... Humans are like tt~~ they wan ppl to tink the same way as dem~~ She said i shld change instead~ Tis time i din "obeY" like hw i used to~ I alwayz tink she is a flirts....n others tld me tt too~~~ bt infront of her...i choose to tell her i tink she is jus more open minded~~ I just dun wan to hurt her at tt moment`~ i noe she will b affected abt my words~~ all the while we tot we were similar....we chose to tink tt way~~~ i dun wanna spoil tt tots~~~ I alwyz try to b as truthful as possible.....bt if i tink the frenzship will b affected by it~ i chose to lie to myself. Bt in my heart........i m v firm abt wat is rite n wat is wrong. I m more objective den subjective. Probably........I can be said as being selfish~~ hopin tt my frenz holds the same value as me~~ ttz becuz i tot my values are more holistic ones.
When she told me " take it as we nvr knew each other b4".....i tot i will b heartbroken....bt i didnt. At tt instance....i can feel the pricks inmy heart~~ i suddenly wished tt i cld tok to someone on the fone...i wished someone was dere to console me........aft a while...i suddenly felt relieved....... i wasnt v much bothered abt it the nxt few days........ i lived more happily........
She msged me tt nite(or was it the following nite) to return her money. She said thanks:)...she said sorry fer troubling u~~ I felt guilty suddenly.....~~ she used to b v insensitive and dominating.... readin these nice msges made me felt guilty....probably i was being too harsh to her...... i;ve been "obeying" her and tellin her how much i doubt her...how angry i was wif her insensitivity all the while must have been a big blow to her~~ I replied back nicely tooz~~:) Bt things wun b the same animore aft the damages we both made to the frenzship.
No one is to b blamed~ blame it on hw we r brought up...hence the diff in values...the diff in character~~ My frenz have all been the caring and sensitive kind~~~ My frenz are all against flirtish n daring gals~~~ Her world is diff from mine. The gap is too big to be filled.
So she still msged me in msn when she saw me~~ Honestly~~ i was beri happy~ I guess she jus said all those nasty stuffs in a fit of anger. I noe she aint tt bad~~ she is a gal tt is gd n kind by nature~~ Her environment and peers pressure jus amde her do things which i perceived as sinful.
Down the road...........things change...ppl changes..........the gap got bigger..bt the memories stay......the frenzship once dere will alwayz be dere~~~ I wun hestitate to help her when she needed help~~ i wun hestitate to lend her a listening ears when she needed one~~ But we werent b as close as b4 animore~~ i will stop "obeying" her~ i will stop "naggin" her.. We r from diff worlds......accomodating each other oni made us less truthful towards our feelings.....
"Phew" I was relieved.
*~DIFFERENCES BTW A COUPLE~* Gals, would you mind if ur bf has much lower qualification den u? Would u mind if he grows up in a cty which u used to loathe?
If u mind....den it's dangerous~ Becuz subconciously...u r alr telling urself all these differences will eventually haunts the relationship~
Guyz, would u mind if ur gf is cleverer den u? higher salary den u? or even taller den u?
If u mind.......den other ppl comments can affect ur stand v easily.
Many of us alwayz claimed tt we dun mind the differences.
Ask urself.....r u sure u realli dun mind? r u sure u nvr ever worried about havin such differences...
I guess it all take time to let each parties have enuff confidence in each other n the relationship.
True love will gif u the confidence.
The gap remains~~~ Bt both will b happier when they eventually tink less abt it....n even tually forget abt it...
However, this case is diff from me n G. The differences btw couple which i mentioned r external factor~ the differences in ctys...accents.... Bt the differences btw G n me r internal factors.... The differences within us....the values....the character....the expectations...... If 2 partners got to accomodate each other like how me n G does.....keeping the truth to ourselves....i doubt they will last~~~
I hate to lie to myself~~~~ Aft a while....i cldnt breathe.
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ME: JuanZ | TKSS,NYJC,NTU | First crY: 19th Nov 86' |
To B HeaLthY | My ParenTs wun Grow olD | NO MORE lies from anione animore | A DigitAL cam | PaSs emAge tEst | Do Well fOr ALl eXaMS | GeT a Gd joB in Future | LasTly,I Jus WisH to B haPPy ALwayZ^^ | I wish...........
