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Wednesday, June 08, 2005

*~ LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP~*

Dawn and me was talking about this topic yesterday. Dawn was saying she thinks long distance relationship is impossible. Hmm...I saw couples living in separate countries and yet so bonded. I guess thats true love. Long distance relstionship needs aLOT of trust and understandings. Needs alot of faith and love.

Why the talk on long distance relationship?

As I've mentioned, I drifted away from my clique because Bop and "xiaoxi" are in that clique too! I didn't want to act happy infront of them. I really felt like I was lacking of oxygen when i was infront of them. I always try to laugh and smile. I think i looked silly at that moment. I didn't want them to know I like Bop, I didn't want Bop to know either. I didn't want him to think that all along i've been sooo nice to him because i wanted him to return the love. No. I did all those stuffs out of pure concern and love, without hoping anything back. So I chose to kept everything to myself.

During those times when i hide myself from them, I felt really miserable. But I know i would have felt even worse if I were to continue acting happy infront of them. I always came up with lots of excuses for not joining them for dinner. Since 'A' Level was near at that moment, they actually thought I was not joining them because I was self centered and all I cared is my studies. When they knew the truth.....I didn't know whats their reaction. Thinking that I was telling a lie and the truth is still to study? Did they preferred to continue thinking the negative sides of me? Thinking my confession of liking Bop is nothing but a lie? I dont know. One of the girls did mentioned that she was very guilty upon hearing the truth. I felt understood, suddenly she just seemed like an angel to me! haha~~ Yup. Really nice to know that at least 1 girl believe me and can totally understand how i feel.

Anyway, after drifted away for about 5 months, things wasn't the same anymore. I just see them less for 5 months and the changes is sOO big for me to engulf. Their topics, their tone towards me is all so different. I can feel the obligation when we talked to each other. Sometimes, we just sound so formal. Only 5 months and a friendship is somewhat not there anymore.

Anyway, this clique is part of my secondary school clique as well. A change in school caused the original big clique to fall apart. The clique in JC, lets name it clique A and the other part of the clique in Secondary School, lets name it clique B have seldom meet during the 2 years in JC. Clique A never called up clique B to ask them how they are. Clique A never inform Clique B when they are celebrating one of the girls b'dae. Clique B wasnt invited. I was in Clique A but still in contact with Clinque B. I can totally understand how clique B feels. 4 years of friendship in secondary school is gone after 1 years of absence in JC.

Relationships are all so fragile............... and shallow...................
Sigh..........................

*~IT's A DAMN SUAY MORNING~*

I heard thunder roaring in the morning when i just woke up. I could feel the unwillingness in me to go to work. Thunder roaring, not a good sign. I woke up, brush my teeth, dragged myself to the sofa and ate my breakfast. Halfway, i fall asleep and when i woke up, it was quite late already. I had a quick wash, changed my clothes and off i went to work.

I saw Bus 51 just reaching the bus stop. I ran as if frictional force doesn't exist. haha. Yup. I was VERY NEAR the bus already and the bus driver point behind, indicating that there was another Bus 51. So i ran further. The Bus 51 behind thought since there was already a Bus 51 infront, there shouldn't be anymore passengers so it drove off to another lane!!!! DAMN IT!!!!!!!!! @%$^#%^#^##$!@

Ok...Calm down calm down. This wasn't the first time already.

^Bus stop A ==============================^Bus stop B*mama shop*
road

I thought i could just strolled my way to Bus stop B, buy some tidbits while waiting for the 3rd Bus 51 to come. I reckoned it would took quite long since 2 Bus 51 had came one after another.

^Bus Stop A===============*======================^Bus Stop B

Halfway, i saw Bus 51 reaching Bus stop B. I need to run fast back to Bus Stop A in order to catch the 3rd Bus 51. Has been a really long time since i run. The feelings just sux. To feel so tired already and still gotta keep chasing buses. Chasing 3 buses in just 1 morning!!! Damn Suay!
$%#%^$&^$&%^&#%^#$@#$@#@!#@#@

*~MR UNEXPECTED~*

Met Dawn yesterday for dinner and to buy present. Dinner at Terra Cafe was not bad. $15 for a main course meal, strawberry kiwi shake, soup and ice cream. The waiter was funny. He looked "dai dai" and when i asked Dawn "hmm...i wonder if strawberry kiwi is the one that people said nice", the waiter sounded ver excited and said"Yah!! Strawberry Kiwi nice!!"~Haha. Seeing his reaction, we supposed it was nice and we ordered. Not bad lo. Not thebest that i've tasted though. Actualli, it was quite normal but for the price we pay, the meal was really worth it. :)

After dinner, we went shopping. Saw this bag at newbie. $31. Hmm... quite like it. Think i will buy it for schooling:) I fall in love with green colour already. The bag was green with a pink butterfly infront. Bought a really nice notebook for yilin. The wrapping paper for A n BC is $2.10!!! Darn! I never checked the price and was so xin tong when i saw the wrapping paper at Shibuya selling at $0.50. The money wasted could have used to buy other stuffs for her. Dawn's boy was at Bugis also. After Dawn bought burger at Mac for her hungry brother at home, she went to find her boy, Jin. Before that, Dawn already told me Jin and his friend were at Bugis. Not knowing why, we just have this perception that Jin's friend will be looking like some pumpkins.
To our BIG surprise, Jin's friend was cute!!! Cute and man! I wonder how these 2 characteristics just exist within him! hahahha. Yup. It's like out of our imagination. We kept thinking it's some nerds or some pumpkins. Dawn while talking to Jin was swaying left and right. I bet she was salivating at Mr unexpected. haha. Jin said both of us were salivating. Damn it! I wasn't K?!!! But I must admit Mr unexpected was not bad looking and really have charisma. But i wasn't salivating!!!!! Made me sounds like some "se nv" :P Btw, Mr unexpected already have a fiancee. He had his own business, house and car as well!!!!! But his malaysian accent kind of deducted some points. Erm...it just doesnt suits his looks.

*~WRAPPING PRESENT~*

I wasn't good at wrapping present. Slept at 1am yesterday to wrap present and write some words for Yilin. Now, i was very tired at work. My eyes felt so heavy.......

it rained at
9:27 AM

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