*~Whispering~* ya~~ I have been whispering for like 2 weeks plus already. Anyway, cooked the chinese medicine that Siyi(chi tut) gave me. And xz helped to boil the medicine~ Feel so paiseh lo~ to make him helped cook the medicine. But luckily he is around, cause i dont have those essential utensils and at times, the medicine overflow out of that small little pot, and what wenjuan will do is panic and switch off the power gas. However, by doing that, the medicine will never be cooked because the pot is really small. So really thank him for helping out and also because of that, he had to go late for lesson. Paiseh paiseh......!!
So i went to see a chinese physician yesterday at JP. Thanks Wanying and Xz for the company!The overall fee is $45!! Damn ex ya?! i thought chinese physician wil be of a much much lower price!! But ptice doesnt really matter to me now anymore. I just want my voice to be back. The doctor said i should be patient with it. The more gan chiong i am, the more heaty my body gets. So i am trying very hard to assure myself that my voice will be back soon and it will be the same as before.
Anyway, i was told not to eat any heaty food, cold stuffs, fish, chicken, seafood............ And all along i thought fish is supposed to be very healthy?! And i have eaten ALOT of fish ever since i am sick. So fish aint good for my throat.........hmm...............
So basically, i can only eat fruits and vege....
*~THE MAID~*
Yup. Went to watch the maid with my hall friends after i went to the doc. Oh ya...before watching, i bought a new pair of earrings at bedazzle~! haha. to console myself actually...... since i was quite sad....infact very sad due to my voice. However the earrings was quite ex. Well...no choice.... who ask me to have sensitive ears:(
So back to the maid. I didnt have high expectation for it since i think Singapore aint good at making horror movie. But the show turned out to be not bad. After the show, we went supper. And well, i wasnt able to eat any of the stuffs!!!! SIGH!!!! So i had bread from 7 eleven instead.
Actually i aint hungry la....but just feel liek eating lo... though i know i am really gaining ALOT of weights already!! :(
*~DANCE AUDITION~* I think i didnt do a good job. Haha. Think i was too shy to show confidence in my dance~! hahaha:P well, i really have no confidence getting in........ :(
And i cant go for choir nor geyao audition...................
Sad....................
*~CAC CAMPUS CONCERT!~* Yaya! There will be a Pin Guan campus concert on 1st sept in ntu! Helped out with the ticketing today. So paiseh. Got no voice so can only help with the stampings of hands. Haha. but i think i have fun doing it. keke:P
anyway, the people there are nice to mix with. Though i have got no voice, i could still very well communicate with them. They are all friendly people liek me! heex.:)
*~SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD~* My Mo gu pai went Ktv w/o me.......:( haha. but well...they already waited very long for my voice to recover liao...... so i am ok with it la..........but to be honest.......sad........not because they left me alone but because i cldnt go...... not really because i cldnt go also........but because.... i have lost my voice for very long...............thats all...............
I think voice is really PRICELESS!!! I think if i dont get back my voice by next week......i may consider seeing a specialist...though i am quite scared that they need to put a tube down my throat to do x ray. My doc nearly asked me to go do a throat x ray in april but i didnt because i was ok by then. Haha. I hope this time i can get away with that too!!
I am really sad and down this few days. I am really getting very irritated by myself........my "voice"............. NObody would understand how bad it feels to lose your voice for weeks..... and ok....maybe you would think that i am worrying too much... but i am really worried for the condition of my throat.......how long will it takes to recover fully?......will my voice change even after recovery..............? will my range become smaller and smaller....? will my voice becomes very weak....? all these questions are in my head ALL THE WHILe. I just couldnt stop worrying........ i just couldnt stop "crying" in myheart.....that i want my voice to be back.....fast...soon...RIGHT NOW!
Okie....maybe there really isnt nothing to make a big fuss about. But i just need a outlet to vent all my frustrations.
I am sad. I am angry with myself.
But what can i do.................................................................................
*bang myself against the wall*
I need to cry out loud!!!!! but even then......i cant do it............ cause my voice is hiding somewhere like me...........................................................................................................
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ME: JuanZ | TKSS,NYJC,NTU | First crY: 19th Nov 86' |
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