*~ What exactly is independence? ~* Lets see....... according to dictionary.com, it is the state or quality of being independent...-_- okok~So what exactly is independent?? Basically it means free from the influence, guidance, or control of another or others; self-reliant: an independent mind. Hmm.... actually there are MANY meanings of independence. I mean you can be dependent financially but have an independent minds. It depends on the circumstances you are in and what are the things that are not within your limit or better done with help and assistances. Afterall, no man is an island. Have that said, i have be 'crowned' dependent by my friends. So i wanted to question them what is 'independence'? Do you know? Apparrently the answers they gave are only to their own arguments and not answer contextually. Basically, they just don't understand me fully. To them, dependence mean..... - People offering to send me home. -_-?????? The word is people offer. And it is late at night. About 11plus, our cca mate felt that he should send me home since it is convenient for him as well. And i tried rejecting, but for my safety sake, he insisted. i must say he was really thoughtful at that moment~Any other motive? i doubt so. I am no sexy babe nor pretty woman. And i realised, those who point their fingers at me accepted other cca mates offer to accompany them home too! Well, it was late and dangerous for girls to go home alone, no one can deny this fact aint it?? afterall, they were doing the same thing.... Sigh. I think i need to buy mirrors for them. - being taken care of well... i am a sickling~that is my stomach used to be damn weak....my health used to be in a very poor state. Friends offered to take care of me. seriously, scorpios always need attention so ya, i admitted i enjoyed the attention not that i really enjoyed the pain! But well, seriously, sometimes friends got over concerned and people think i am the one being dependent! I can only say i am fortunate to have caring friends. I cna do without all the cares when i am not so sick. You mean all patients in the hospital are dependant in a negative way some ways or others? Of cause my health aint in such poor state but people felt the need to care for me when i got gastric pains n all. If that is wrong....do you mean concerning and sharing love is a sin? hmmm............. i think you people really need to ponder over it..... - Asking people for help in my project. Woah!! this heading sounds like i am really in the wrong ya? but the instruction given by the teacher is to find people to do recording.hmm...... so seriously....i cant do the project alone unless i tried imitating 3 voices..... So i get people to help..... but i am bad....because i asked xz to help me edit the recordings...but my roomie did the same thing too...well.... i am It diot too k...... so IT wise....i admit i am dependent. But i am learning k..... from not being able to use excel...to quite an expert in it...ever since i worked in an office for 6 months. ok...anyway back to the topic....people think i am dependent because... i asked people to record Ready conversations for me!!!! sinful me.... i really really thanked those people k~~ I have no one to turn to....i dont have parents who held long conversation wth me here and then.....my brother being a chinese teacher will definitely be good in his chinese so there wont be any faults for me to point out and research one...and i the conversations can only be recorded naturally w/o my presence. So i need their help. okie. in this case, i am being dependent in a way, but i did my research and all all on my own. The recordings is just something for me to start off with and after considering i have no one to turn to for recording and that my presence may cause the conversation to sound fake....i asked for help. Someday, when they need my help i will. This is what friends are for...aint it? Hmm..... having said all these......what are the things that others always failed to see of me? - i dont begged people to go anywhere with me. That is, if the person is rEALY REALLY unwilling, and the purpose of the outing is for non important stuffs like shoppings....i can go on my own. But of cause, no man is an island! i will start getting inferior if no one ever accompany me at all!!!! ya??I need love and care like any other man. But if my friends are really busy, i will just head to shop, or head to eat alone. - I do my own decision all along. From schools to courses~ Never do my parents need to worry about it. I looked around for courses outside school to enrich my life. Attended drama class outside school for 6 years, drama class held by Jteam production and singing class recently........ I made the decision to sign up these classes and i tried to learn as much as i can from these lessons. Do i have any firends to start accompany me in the first place? No. i cant find. But its okie. I really wanna learn so i go alone. Nothings wrong with it. But do my friends know what i am busy with during weekends?they dont know. ya. this sounds like a stupid entry to praise and booast about myself. But it is definitely not. just a few egs to rebutt against non fundamental views of others. In conclusion, everyone is dependent in one way or another because no one is perfect. Plus, love, concern and care is all man's needs. - I wonder what will the exam format be like. got alot of extra materials from the internet to study........ but i worried that i may be actually wasting time though ultimately i do learn more things...... but 'pore education system has taught us that results seems to be moe important...well....at least i am brought up to believe this. Off to study! nah....is reading and understanding-_-"" May the force be with moi!! JIAYOU!!!!
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