*~ Why do Man always think of the ugly sides of each other? ~* hmm... Zhenyi told me " cause this world is about the survival of the fittest!". But not everything is about competition, some are really meaningless competition. When did our environment teach us to be so cynical.... we are known for kiasu but cynical as well bah..... However, i kept ponder upon this questions probably...and most probably is cause i am cynical freak~ Whenever i read stories....... i tend to think ALOT.... Of cause i see the good sides of the characters... but i always tend to see the ugly sides...where my friends failed too...... there is no right or wrong in literature........ somehow i am just bornt to be moer cynical..... and somehow i believe everyone is wearing a mask n protect themselves from each other...its good to be protective....but not over protective....... when i returned home...... i can just feel the difference...... i do what i want.... i said what i want..... my family feel so real to me... they have to.... if not i think i wil be damn miserable........ How i hope everyone will put down their shield abit.... and be more real to each other.... but it wont happens if no 1 took the first step.......so the problem is who would actuallly dare to take the first step? I wonder if things were like that because industrialization and all the progression..... maybe back to stone ages.... it was when Man portray the most beautiful and real sides~~ Maybe its good to live in stone age~
*~ Sleeping in danger ~*
Many a times, i slept, woke up, found no one in the room, and it always shocked me....or rather frightened me when i found the door unlocked...or even opened.. whenever i leave the room for even a minute... if my roomie was sleeping, i would locked the door. Because i did wat i did i should and all roomies should do.... i do expect the same thing back. I told her about the hall2 story before. A girl got raped by nearby foreign workers probably on a saturday when she was sleeping and her roomie forgot o just think its okie not to locked. Well, this may be a story fabricated by my friend because she advised me not to stay in hall...that it is distracting and all...... the the bottomline is..... it is dangerous to some extent. Its just about responsibilty. Well, i was actually quite angry by it because it aint the first time. Of cause i may have commited a=other mistakes too... but right now.... i am just disappointed that what my reminders didnt go into her head. Sigh.................... i gotta remind her again later........... its just aint a good feeling to know you are slping alone with door unlocked noe? esp with strangers walking around freely in hall...
*~ Regretted ~* i actually regretted to reveal my blog add to ppl..... actually there are alot of things that i needed to vent out soemtimes...... they sounds toopid...ugly....becase it is just anger or disappointment at that very moment...... it may even be some crush? or some 'hatings' about people~ hahahaha. Think i should practise what dawn did!!!
*~ Lagging ~* Seriously lagging. What can i do? Back to my notes now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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ME: JuanZ | TKSS,NYJC,NTU | First crY: 19th Nov 86' |
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