*~ Hidden Secrets? ~* People always asked why do i not share my secrets.....or rather problems......but seriously.....i think i am still quite a transparent person~ I only tell people all that i feel when i feel that person is willing to listen....trust me.... and thus....i will trust that person too............... And its quite extreme....because when i trust a person......i am actually willing to tell that person everything and anything within me...if he/she ever asked........... So frenz.... always worried that i kept everything within.no..... i do have people whom i think i can talk to when i need........ But i am quite a passive person.... i actually need people to ask me what happened...then will i said out my probs..... i dont know why.......it jus feels funny.........to tell people w/o people asking........
Since i am touching on this topic....i shall list down a list of the kinds of people i can talked about my hidden secrets or problems............
Kind#1
Those who tell me about their problems........ i feel trusted.....and hence.......i trust them too.......i am such a fair and square person.......... but when i start to trust.......i trust entirely.........Quite dangerous if i ever met some cunning and scheming people...........
Kind#2
Those who cares abou tme alot.......and ask me what happened when they sense my sorrows.......of cause i wont talk it out everytime people asked....it depends on if they person seems to be sincerely concerned....... intuition actually.... sometimes i tld people i have known for only 1 or 2 months my secrets.....or my problems........
Kind#3
Those who seems to be damn frank and i feel that person is totally harmless to me..... i do not need to worry that one day he/she will use what she knows to threaten me....... Basically there are nothing to threaten actually............ I am quite a boring person....... no exciting secrets at all....................................... only weird and cynical thoughts..................which sometimes i got frightened by myself too................. The horoscope analysis that i did last time mentioned about this trait of me too!!! It is damn true.............. no horoscope analysis every said that of me....this is the first....and bingo....true............. Sometimes i really wonder what makes me think soo much.....and somehow.....i could find reasons for all the cynical thoughts of mine......they sounds reasonable to me.......but some of my friends think it is ridiculous......
okok...examples of some of my cynical thoughts.....
like when some frenz just upset me.....and then said they realise their mistakes....and become very good to me.....when the people i complained too before were around....i actually think that they are all just putting up a good show........ I am VERY cynical right??? You know i do want to think in a positive ways........... but then....... humans are hard to trust you know...... i mean if i can think them to be so complicated....... they could be so complicated at their thoughts too....... It is actually tiring....because sometimes i do believe that people are sincerely nice....and then i just trust and like that person entirely.........when he/she did something which cause me to think alot negatively....... i will start to sort of hate that person again........ Its tiring to keep wandering between love and hates.................
*~ DOOMED ~* I dunno what happened.................but i seriously.......seriously...............cant get anything in my head NO MATTER how hard i tried.......................... The whole morning......the whole afternoon........the whole evening...........i barely got 1 chapter in my head..........................................
I really wonder what am i doing at this crucial moment................ SHIT me!!!
Off to mug.
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ME: JuanZ | TKSS,NYJC,NTU | First crY: 19th Nov 86' |
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