Case #1-The unreasonable, the ridiculous, the troublemaker
I was shocked when i knew that the new hostel fees next academic year will be $240 for double room occupancy and $350 for single room occupancy. Isnt this some daylight robbbery??
They claimed that it is reasonable becuz we have got lifts and aircons. But an increase of $110 every month is too ridiculous. A disgusting sum. I dun believe they need so much money for the manageement of merely 5 air cons. Whatsmore, if we use the aircon, we gotta pay extra fees for it. So why so much money for maintaining the air cons. they have failed to show us how the money collected is being distributed. There aint any transparency in how things operate. Apparently, their aim is to keep the rich that dun mind providing them with more money. How about ppl who have done alot for the halls? not that i am one of them....not that i think i have contributed much...infact i dun...but i felt unfair for them.
Whats upset me most, is not only the possibilty of not stayin tgt with current hall 3 ppl....but also the thought that FOC might not be able to carry on as juniors might not want to choose our hall since the fees are soo ex. Well, not that i have contributed alot...since i am just a secretary...but as a mian com members....maybe i do not show....but i realli do want FOC to be a success....sincerely....
WHATEVER shit....no that every2 noes how i felt..........
I am realli upset by all this hiccups.....everyone is disappointed and angry over it...... i can see the hall 3 culture dying.....in years to come...... we are goin to negotiate with the school office on monday. But i doubt they will want to change their decisions in order to maintain their reputation. There aint any way for us to prove that the statictics they gave on the breakdown of money is true and accurate. I really doubt the credibility of what they gonna claimed to be true.
Case #2-What upsets me MOST!!
-first, the pms of my roomie.... sometimes she tend to made some comments which made her sounds arrogant and proud....like sayin that she felt she played beta and all...like jokingly said my head is big but its empty....w/o swallowing the fact that my results have always been beta...i know she meant all to be a joke....but it aint funny realli...to say it repeatingly....and esp infront of other frenz.....it realli AINT FUNNY....and sometimes the way she talks....i dunno....but i am ok with it afterall........as in....besides her tone is still ok to me...quite normal../just that ytd what she said quite pissed me off la.....the way she scorned. I guess i am just bein too frustrated with many things that i actually told wy n ls...how bad i felt la........ but after that...her tone to me is still as nice la..... thou sometimes....i too felt that her tone changed for this period of time...n i wonder y...... i guessed she has reached her peak in life...thats y.....it is quite reasonable bah..as in..maybe i am once like tt too??......i dunno....but as long as her tone towards me remained fine...i m ok with it.
Wy said i am a lousy roomie. haha. What a joke. it takes 2 hands to clap k? i am just respectin her....like she is respecting me....by not askin me anythin why she knew i am sad....n i m sobbing at my table. i dun blamed her afterall...since i always dun dare to ask her wat happen..... afraid tt she thinks i am intriguing her life.....n just tryin to poach more gossips...thou i definitely aint.......... wateva...i am so lousy k?
I am not a sports person and i think that posed alot of troubles. As in ppl think u are useless n all........ my oni interest is in cultural activities...but i failed to join...not that i didnt try.......... My toe is injured....and no one will even take tt into acc...cuz indeed thats small injury....just consistent ingrown toe nails........ but it does posed troubles to me........ today hall 3 is havin some friendly match with Sheares hall from NUS. Since i aint able to play in any sports....i helped to sell drinks n canvassed for our hall orientation 2006. When i helped carry the buckets of drinks....wy commented that we seemed like we have no energy carryin in....n jokingly(i wish) say that its becuz i have no strenght....yeah yeah...i am weakling. I am so touched when beisi reminds her i used to carry drums for lion dance. indeed...it has been like 1 yr plus w/o any tough trainings....n all my muscles have turned to fats.....but carrying things is ok for me....i am not as weak can???? I have carried drums n all the other heavy stuffs in lion dance b4. All of us in lion dance did. All of us got gold for NAFAs...all of us aint weak....all of us can definitely do simeple things like carryin a bucket of drinks. I just mentioned to her ytd i hate it when bs kept jokingly said my head is big but empty. Just becuz they imagine me to be the big head in lion dance which i def aint. Anw....big head in lion dance aint easy to be too. I hated it. I REALLI HATED it. I just told her ytd and she provoked me with the same thing today.
I am realli hurt. REALLI. I am hurt by alot of stuffs....but i always keep it to myself............i broke down....at my table just now,.....n my eyes are still swollen...i tld sooyun my toe is bleedin again....but only my heart is painful.....i can feel my heart bleeding too......................
the thought of how my frenz tld me not to tell case 5 frenz tld me he said i am childish just becuz i rejected him in a reallu harsh way..... made me feel.....dunno.....alone...........ya....alone.
The thought of how my frenz sometimes JOKINGLy...ya.....jokingly again....said how useless i am..................I think they realli loves to joke alot.
I tld sooyun i realli feel empty at this moment.
Sometimes...i realli wish there can be someone there for me....behind me...besides me...everywhere with me....forever....and then nothing matters to me anymore...except for a few close frenz maybe n my family.
Said i am depserate....laughed at me....but i realli feel empty now. But i aint gonna accept anyone that comes along. Infact....i wonder y those who likes me are some creeps.......... it makes me the feel the someone is further n further away from me..........i cant picture myself with someone that promised to be with me all the way................
I am sobbing again as usual........feelin something tuggin my heart.....i felt v tight up....n my chest is pain........... i feel so heavy........... i feel like gg home now......rushed into the bathroom.....n cry all i want without anyone knowin....y wld i wanna look weak.....when ppl thinks i am weak enuff..............
Where haf all my energy goes to?? Why there aint any story tellin competition in sch?? erm...wat about chinese emcess grp?? no one sees wat i did b4..wat i am doin outside........ the peak for me is over.....far over................when i stepped into nyjc.....it is time for me to fall .................
The sun is scorching on everyone in the field.....but in my heart...it is raining.....nonstop.....i think i have catch a cold..................
it rained at 12:53 PM
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ME: JuanZ | TKSS,NYJC,NTU | First crY: 19th Nov 86' |
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