*~ What happens when a guy declare his liking for you....... ~* Besides all the teasing and interrogation, there will definitely be ppl making non-fundamental judgements about you.........
* haiz...this girl is over-friendly, thats y the guy is attracted*
(guys!if tw actress, ruhua is friendly to you all, will u be attracted to her?)
*ya lo ya lo. This girls has got no jing chi*
Yesh yesh. No jing chi is the word that REALLY offended me. And our cheerleading ryan said that to me. Halo!! Am i v shou with you for you to use such offensive words on me??
What they actually referring to is the GL case if you all rmb. The one that likes me yet tell my roomie he thinks i am incapable. yeap yeap. Does it sounds familiar?
Anyway, what actually happens is....durin our orientation camp at Sentosa, i was damn awake. Sam was very awake too, so we decided to play cards. And then GL joined us. After that, i wanted to go to the toilet, Sam wanted to accompany me but GL said he accompanied me will do. I asked him to quit smoking. Well, and frenz n ryan think i am being over friendly n no Jing Chi(??come on!!)for that matter. But....when i was in lion dance, many of the seniors smoked and i too ask them to quit. They think by doin that, it makes the guy feel that i care for the him. But...if they have no other feelings stirrin within them, would they actually think so much about what i said. I have asked my lion dance seniors to quit too, but none likes me. Tell me, issit my fault??? Cant we just care for each other as normal pure friends? Platonic relationship DO exist as long as your mind are clear. He told me about his last relationship....he told me how upset he was. Being the emotional me....i am easily affected by such stories. Probably because i am a big failure in relationships too. Well, i cried while watching each series of FULL HOUSE, so you should know how sentimental i was. I felt for him. I can understand his sadness, but i seriously htink that smoking cant help to bring the relationship back on track. I wanted to help him. So i kept tellin him how bad smoking is... and the other ways to forget about this pain in his heart. I never want to make him likes me by being such a nice listener. I knew right from the start what are the types of guys i like. Definitely not pessimistic guys like him. Then y would i even try to mislead him. This is getting ridiculous. Well, so that is about the reason that what might have makes him likes me.
I am just being myself. If its hard to define flirt, then its hard to define over-friendly as well. Sometimes it actually depends on the bringing up of that person. I may be friendly but according to that person, i may actaully still being hostile. Come'on! you get whtat i mean? I am from a mixed school. We pat each other shoulder and head to ask 'what happen' when we saw each other being upset and all. i am close to those guys even if they have gf, and i have bf. But of cause there is a limit. i will NEVER go out with guys whom i know likes me and i have no interest at all. that is my principle. On one hand, is NOT to mislead dem, but also to protect myself. You never know what guys will do when they are desperate or whatever la...
*~ Listening earssss ~* Beisi, wy n ls came to my room to talk to me....and tryin to make me calm down. Wy n bs said that they dont think Ryan is malicious in his word. To me, to say a girl has got no Jing Chi sounds offensive but they said that his definition might be diff from mine. ok...i admitted that. But i dunno him well....so i dun know what he realli mean, did he misunderstood me and judge me becuz yibao n gl likes me, n a interhall guy whom he heard from wy.Since i dunno what he realli means, i shall not approach and start talkin to him first. I dont think i am wrong doing that. I am suiting to his culture, what he believes, what he is most comfortable with. I am just suiting to his own definition and expectations. Since it is impt that diff ppl with diff cultures try to accomodate each other. i shall just quietly observe him first b4 making any judgements, and knowin what are the best ways he like ppl to tok to him then.
Anyway, i do appreciate gumupai's effort of comin got my room and calm me down. Sorry that i cldnt quite get things in because i felt really unhappy. Probably i am still affected by the incident whereby a FA senior misunderstood me just becuz yb likes me. Rmb? She said "dun need to suck up to me.i have nth for u to make use." Well, she thinks that i m making use of guys who likes me probably.
I am really tired by all these................ I am still waiting for that someone....... it doesnt helps even if TOnnes of guys like me but none is the fateful one. Sometimes, it even gave me troubles when some creepy guys like me but sometimes, i must admit it consoled my empty heart for a moment. :) (but somehow, till now, i dun felt consoled at all....) The more wrong ones who likes me, the more disappointed i am..... I really feel happiness are far from my reach.
I never never never wish to attract alot of guys... i just need this one and only guy whom i like to like me.......and then i will be satisfied enough...in fact that is only what i yearned for.......
Where are you? if you are here, most prob all scandals and other admirers will be gone. U(which i dunno hu u will be) is the only one that i needed......................
*~ Out with Panda ~*
yup, went out with alan aka panda for a show and also because he needed to pass me some shirts~ You all must have exclaimed"see!caught u red-handed!misleading a guy huh?". Haha. seriosuly got bad experience about how ppl can think so much and kept misunderstood me. Well, alan is this good frenz of mine which we have no feelings for each other at all! From the start when he likes a girl till he got rejected till now, we are still as gd as b4. As in,there aint any changes in how we talk n all. But when we saw ppl we know, i will still stay far away from him to avoid gossips. But still, i do appreciate him as a frenz. He lent me his ears when i seriously need 1 when i fall SO badly in yr 2. All thanks to him and others whom have also lent me their ears n girls who gave me hugs. He is one of the cases that prove to me once again that platonic relationship DO exist.
Anyway, we went to watch Ru Guo Ai. Not really a nice show i would say. I expected quite alot from this show because it was some oscar watsoever award... But it didnt turn out well. There aint any climax in this show and the songs was far from Moulin Rouge. It was quite....far from my expectation...i would say. But Jing chen Wu is DAMN CHARMING as usual and Jacky Cheung voice is still the best.
Wanted to pay Panda money but he put it back in my bag. But for those who is thinkin of forkin out money to watch the show, i would think that downloadin it from internet or buyin vcd is a better alternative. But for those who realli wish to drool over Jing Cheng Wu, guess you really need the BIG BIG screen to see every parts of his face clearly, feeling it close to you. haha.
*~ TKSS Girls Outing tml!!~* I am glad to know that there will be a girls' outin tml~!! Lets hope only the girls turned up. As in, tml is meant to be a girls' outing, aint it?? Yup. SO HAPPY and looking forward~~:) And Saturday will be having gatherin with CAC. well, here, i gotta be really friendly to helkp break the ice. Whatsmore, i am given this responsibility to hold the outing so that the members will know each other better. I think i will really suits those PR jobs. breaking ice is what i like to do. Actualli, i always wish to be some host, to bring me nearer to the mass, to provide entertainment, but i think i am still not up to it. Being a host isnt as easy as it seems.
Hmm........... gonna do some reading n sit ups b4 i go to slp. And tml i will go home n then prepare for the outing!!!! :) Feel soooooooooooo glad that i am gg home soon.
Hope all these supposedly happy events will made my days better~ made my mood better~~ n maybe bring my guardian angel nearer to me~~:)
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ME: JuanZ | TKSS,NYJC,NTU | First crY: 19th Nov 86' |
To B HeaLthY | My ParenTs wun Grow olD | NO MORE lies from anione animore | A DigitAL cam | PaSs emAge tEst | Do Well fOr ALl eXaMS | GeT a Gd joB in Future | LasTly,I Jus WisH to B haPPy ALwayZ^^ | I wish...........
