guess no one will continue readin this blog after that previous entry ya? i jus need to vent out my feelings......my thoughts..........................................................................
it might make u all feel better that there r someone with me~ but it doesnt makes me feel better because that aint the someone i wan~ i dont need to be sympathised over...i dont need ppl to try to be 'helpful'~ i dont wan to feel like i am really that bad...that inferior....that i need all the helps and all the pity~i dont want to look happy when i am actually not~ i dont wanna be think that i am alone and all.... i prefer to think i am not alone........though its hard i noe...... i dont need ppl to kept 'pushing' me around..... i m not in a hurry... i might feel alone in between....still i am not in a hurry~ so y hurry me... i know some are just joking......but lots of it...still make me sad....and i gotta just hold back all emotions....and force them down my throat......painful~~~
otehr stuffs disappoint me too~ but i realise i have met such incidents lots of itme....so didnt wanna lament about it here~
i feel so tight up now....i suddenly wish i am really physically alone~ and do what i wan~~
y must i feel this way when exam is up........
i know ppl r jus kidding....... but sometimes.....jokes can be hurting.................. i am just thinking too much btw too bah......probably affected by the songs i listened today.....
i wan to be happy.... i will be.....:)
it rained at 11:22 PM
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ME: JuanZ | TKSS,NYJC,NTU | First crY: 19th Nov 86' |
To B HeaLthY | My ParenTs wun Grow olD | NO MORE lies from anione animore | A DigitAL cam | PaSs emAge tEst | Do Well fOr ALl eXaMS | GeT a Gd joB in Future | LasTly,I Jus WisH to B haPPy ALwayZ^^ | I wish...........
