mum asked me not to like anione for his car n money....i know who she is referrin to... n i felt SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO insulted CAN!!! n damn disappointed with her too~~ so thats how she thought of her own daughter!!!!i couldnt hold it longer.......
n so i JUST tell her...i never wan to like anione cuz of money!! can dont think of me in tt way...she say she is not....she is jus advising me~
but the fact that she says it out jus make me think that she doesnt trust me ..............:(
i am still nt sure if i will really like him forever.......we r nt even officially tgt yet.............both of us know things r gg way too fast......none of us wants to ruush...........i didnt wanna hurt him......n i am sooo touched when he said he understands n he didnt wanna hurt me either............
these few days he had been damn nice......n i feel grateful to him.......feeel grateful tt he was determined to change....n i can see the changes in him.......:)
but sometimes i am afraid my expectations r too high tt he will get irritated by me........sometimes i am afraid to ignore the phrase " a leopard never changes it spots "......things aint confirmed yet........but i am happy now....with him around.....i feel v safe......n i know he respected me for my decision as well.....i know it even better when he let go my hand when i say things r happening too fast for both of us.......he let go n he said he will prove to me one day he has changed...he cld have held on tite...bt he let go....cuz he said he didnt wanna hurt me either....
all the water, cake, the exchanging of watches:P n ESP honey drink really you gan dong dao wo~ from a guy tt dont really care so much for girl to a guy that is so caring and understanding.....i am really thankful for everything..............
but things r gg too fast.......i dont know if it will end fast for me.....................................
things r gg too fast sometimes i cldnt picture his face n every morning i will stare into the blank tryin V hard to picture his face~~ thou i even managed to dream of him last nite alr~~~:) but this morning....i am still tryin hard to picture:( i think we really need more time tgt~~~
jus msged him telling him how insulted n disappointed i felt....n he called immediately though he has told me he is left with lots of work to clear up today....he called n consoled me in a v rush tone n said sorry...hais...need to work again....but it is soo nice of him to call n console..........thanks:) he believes me....all the while...i know....i am glad.....he said maybe my mum just phrase things in a wrong way n tt she is just concerned for me.....i think sometimes he is more mature den me when handing family stuffs cuz he n his family is REALLY close and he cares for dem alot alot alot..........i feel much better after he called.......................... but i am still pondering.............
is he the one? y couldnt i picture him again.......:( i oni rmb his ic pic....his officer pic......bt now he looks totally diff....n i cldnt rmb......:(
i really does hope i rmb............................ i think we need more time.........n i am glad no one is rushing me......................:) he is taking leave on thurs to pei me b4 i start my short 7 days work on friday........:) he asked if i m happy abt it....n egoistic me jus wont admit......tt i am ....i really am:)
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ME: JuanZ | TKSS,NYJC,NTU | First crY: 19th Nov 86' |
To B HeaLthY | My ParenTs wun Grow olD | NO MORE lies from anione animore | A DigitAL cam | PaSs emAge tEst | Do Well fOr ALl eXaMS | GeT a Gd joB in Future | LasTly,I Jus WisH to B haPPy ALwayZ^^ | I wish...........
