i think i am jus afraid to love becuz i m afraid to fall hard agn....n this time it wld be harder i know............
as much as i avoided it unconsciously....i guess i might have fallen in it still.................
i am getting dependent on him, i m missing him,...........
n i need to constantly remind myself not to fall tooooo deep......its really hard to do so.......
its a miracle how someone cld make me learn to love in such a short time..........i hope i wont forget how to love again.......
time.trust.tolerance.understanding n of cuz love is wat we need to last us thru.......................
i hope we cld keep learning........to love the rite way.........n let it last.........yi bei zi......
* sigh....the shop i working for has like all its shop in town except for the tampinese retail shop........ should i request to just do in tm or shd i jus be posted to town.......... i didnt wan him to feel mafan looking for me................... but if he feels mafan findin me...................... den does it means he didnt love me enuff......? i think i just cldnt stop worrying now tt i realise i m falling depper n deeper..............n i didnt wanna get hurt deeper n deeper in the end as well.............. sigh........ to think of it.....i think it would be quite hard to get posted to tm....when it has all its shops in town..........:( i m feeling insecure ,everything tt comes made me worried...................i hate myself to feel soooo insecure n dependent now.............:( *
-lost n confused-
^ i rmb to love...you taught me how....and i hope i will not forget how once more....^
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ME: JuanZ | TKSS,NYJC,NTU | First crY: 19th Nov 86' |
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