don't expect too much...it brings disappointment... as wat meiting always tld me...n as wat i'vealr know long ago....i still cant prevent myself from being disappointed............
i dunno if u girls will have this kindda feelin.... after a few months.... u started to keep reminscing the good old days and you realised...ya...'old' days...there seems to b changes....n u cant help bt get paranoid.. u will miss the old days damn lot...the days when he tried to win ur heart n ur trust.... those days are always sweetest memories tt makes ppl wan to experience it again....n often....these days can only b kept as memories n nv happened again....it can b done agn upon request....bt probably nt with the same attitude animore....afterall...its upon request.......
but we should always look forward to the present...the future...for more nice memories to keep:) u know he is by ur side...isnt tt more den enuff??.....but i guess its only aft sometime when things r stable n secure... tt u stop hopin soo much for the past to replay....cuz u noe the r/s is alr stable n u r alr feelin v safe n secure...tt he is cfm truthful to u...tt u look forward to entering another phase of life with him......
i wonder if u girls feel it this way..... or m i jus being unreasonable....to expect things to remain the same...to fear changes... to fear the so called honey moon to end....issit really necessary to end?to fear his change in mind n heart....cuz as time goes....he realised to be truthful in love is really hard n might jus gets sianz with you.... i've lots of qtns...doubts...worries.... in mind..... for tis is the first official r/s.... with me really giving my heart n soul....to hopefully make it work out....make it last.... n last not only becuz i make it happen on my part....but we make it happen tgt~!
love needs ALOt of perseverance n understandings.....from both parties.........it b xing ku bt fufiling...ask urself r u ready for the 'hardships' before u deserve the blissfulness....(is dere such word...apologise for my lousy vocab:P)...
love aint as simple as we think...bt nt as complicated as we think too.... r u ready to love.....ready to gif in all.......... we all shd really gif a hard tot to it............ including myself.........
or maybe as wat my colleague tld me...dun think so much abt it....jus zou yi bu kan yi bu....tt be better.....bt i am afraid when there's no more lu to zou...it'l be too late to think of solution...
haha...i realise i really fear alot of things..the deeper im in love...the more i fear...probably.... i shdnt stress myself too much n putting the stress on him as well.......................
-true love never run smooth.... r u willin to brave thru every storms with me....walk with me no matter wat? give it a serious tot....really....-
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ME: JuanZ | TKSS,NYJC,NTU | First crY: 19th Nov 86' |
To B HeaLthY | My ParenTs wun Grow olD | NO MORE lies from anione animore | A DigitAL cam | PaSs emAge tEst | Do Well fOr ALl eXaMS | GeT a Gd joB in Future | LasTly,I Jus WisH to B haPPy ALwayZ^^ | I wish...........
