Saturday, August 12, 2006
National day eve was a nightmare.... becuz we kindda quarrelled.... we dont really raise our voice and argue... but we r both unhappy abt each other.... n i feel kindda restricted... feel totally controlled... n it wasnt a xingfu feel... we had misunderstandings... n he said things that hurts me....... i feel nt understood.... n i was feelin terrible inside... even when he pat my arms, ask me nt to cry... he will get used to everything... i feel worst inside........it was such a terrible feel that i cldnt slp...nt to mention study.... i just keep crying and crying.... it was such a lousy feel...:(
after all the cryings...n talkin out.... things get better the nxt day... in fact things was rather fine the next day...thou i was really really really disappointed tt we aint watchin the sunrise le.....
but i was really happy when he suggested we walked to the national stadium from his house to watch fireworks... it was quite a distance.... bt i dont feel tired at all...with him holdin my hand...the firework was so so...bt the acc is great!! he made the fireworks more beautiful to my eyes~~:) n we ate my fav homemade ice cream rite aft! i still prefer the orchard ones thou....but i was alr v satisfied~~ we den saw a big chao chao tt looked just like a lion~! a mini lion... n we jus followed it all the way... in fact...it attracted alot of attentions....n others jus followed it like we do...bt we managed to follow tt big chao chao all the way till we reached home~~:) Imagine wenjuan followin a big chao chao~~ that will be a rare scene cuz i used to siam whenever i see dogs...nt to mention its a BiG chaochao~~ bt it was such a happy experience to follow chao chao...eat ice cream...talk cock... n just hapily live in our own world~~~:) Dinner was great!! his mum cooked lotsa prawns for me... n tts my fav!! he peeled lots of prawns for me! hee... thank you!!
we found a gd place to watch the fireworks at esplanade! while ppl try to squeeze their way to find a place to sit n catch a glimpse of the marvellous fireworks....we found a secret location to watch it....with lotsa of space...v few ppl....n gd view~~it was adventurous to explore this new place with dar~~ it was a memorable experience...n our effort is definitely worth it.... when i saw the fireworks....which is much more magnificient den the one in ndp!! ndp fireworks is really nth.... n i must watched the fireworks by france nxt yr! we din manage to watch it this time... we watched the one by calodenia?? nt sure wats the country called... bt it was indeed a xingfu feel to watch fireworks with ur loved ones!! esp such nice fireworks! its like celebrating our love as well... to be as beautiful as the fireworks....bt hopefully aft all the sparks...it still last................................ too bad i oni brought my lousy hp ....while others brought video cam, camera stand n all!! dar said its alright, we will watched it agn nxt yr n video it down!ahhh~~~ feel so nice to hear tt.... dunno if it will materialise bt at least we hope for a nxt yr tgt....n for many more years to come too!!
Friday i was a bit feverish n my throat hurts....Saturday... i lost my voice Totally...n last yr i lost my voice for 2 mths in aug too!! m i gg to lose voice annually in aug?? CHOY!! touch wood... i better nt curse myself......... bt i was lucky tis time...cuz dar was dere to give me 24 hrs consultation~~ cooked medicine for me... keep makin honey drinks.... salt water.... apple juice for me... n it feels so nice...everytime my throat hurts..n my face shows it....he will give me a hug n asked m i feelin v xingku..........
indeed....i feel really xingku to lose my voice!!!i was really sufferin last yr for that 2 mths... n i even need help to order food in canteen!!!!!! ~_~
but i feel really really xingfu too...............to be loved n cared by u:)
n i know dar took the risk of bringin me out....becuz his parents will nag....thanks alot! really appreciate tt..... love consists of u n me... n i really wish a personal space for both of us too....nt always...bt at least sometimes:) n i noe u been tryin v hard to make me feel loved n xingfu:) i dun asked to always drive around n all.... walkin to stadium was fun!! n takin a bus home tgt was fun too!!! :) maybe we shd jus eat less when we go out~~ haha~~
thanks dar~~~~~ really.... millions thanks.....:)
Now........... PLEASE JUST LET ME HAVE MY VOICE BACK SOON!!!!!!!!!!
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