Yup~ jus met up the tk girls last sun to celebrate our dear fren, meiting's birthday! the small celebration was held at V8 Bugis~ and before that, dar acc me walked around before the rest of the tk girls reached~ thanks! It was a small gathering with me, sooyun, mingqi, dawn, suqi, eileen and not forgetting our birthday girl Meiting! n her beloved bf~:) Ahhh~~ so many years...so much changes......everyone is better is their dressing....and some really nv da shi ba bian~! but some things have not changed.... we r still the same old crazy tk girls....that laughed and joked loudly... we never get sick of the same old tk topics....we jus cldnt stop reminiscing dem~ ahh~~ all the stoopid things we used to do..... but it was all such nice memories~~~:)
Am really glad to see Meiting and Harris r/s going so strong~ love is shown in their eyes...n the couple rings they had....is really nice~! its not abt the ring alone....bt you could jus see their eyes beaming with love when they looked at each other....n i could really feel dem totally immersed in blissfulness~~ ahh~~~ time flies n they have been tgt so rather long~~ feel really happy for dem~~:)
It was the same old jokes den we started singing birthday song....n cut the birthday cake~ No more biting of candles.... n shoving of birthday cake money under the table.... n the candles on the birthday is no longer a big 1....but 2 big big candles......
We have really aged...haha... but it's a nice feelings to have ur frens around to age with...sharing the same old jokes....laugh tgt...cry tgt...
Happy birthday meiting!!! Really glad to see you so xingfu and happy now~~ I wish u and harris happily ever after~~:) And thanks for being such a great fren all this while~ :)
*~3rd month anniversary~*
i am glad i went for the gathering.....:) after the gatherin...i met up with dar at his house before we set off back hall tgt~~ suddenly he brought a small heart shape cake out....and gif a peck on my lips...."happy 3rd month dar"~~ ahh~~~ i really din expect such surprises after the first 2 months~~ (haha~`...hint hint:P)....but well.... i m really surprised n stoned a while when i saw the cake~~ jus a small surprise but i am glad he is really tryin to give me surprises to make me happy n all~~ :) thanks dar~~`
no wonder he kept askin me to go off to my gathering....so he went down the escalator to bought the cake from four leaves... but he saw me while i tong tong make my way to cold storage to get the things i need for the surprise i gonna give him the nxt day~~ n i was soo stoopid to msg him to borrow fridge when i actually wanted to msg wanying.....so he roughly got an idea wat i gonna do.....
and ya~` Its cookin!! I purposely wake up early to go for the first tutorial group instead of the 2nd which i m in....so i got about 40 mins in hall to prepare the food b4 he came after his lessons at nus~` The kitchen is one floor below and i gotta run up n down to get down all the ingredients~`
Cooked Spaghetti~~`fry the sausages~~~ and one soup with egg~~ in forty mins...includin gettin all the ingredients down n up.....n the food up..... i am perspiring like hell`~~ He finally reached the hall and i could see he was really happy to see the dishes i prepared~` but the spaghetti was rather inedible cuz it wasnt really cooked....because i was really rushing to finish it......n it came out rather awful..... it was still hard n cold....but dar finished them...and said he would finished whatever i have cooked~~ thanks for the encouragement~!! instead of puking out the noodle.....or throwin them away~` :)
But~~ i must give myself credit too!!! the sausages is really nice when i jus finished cookin k!! No chao da~` and golden brown when i just finished with it~~ but he came too late to eat them while its hot~! The soup really gave me a sense of satisfaction~` hee~~ thou well...its quite easy to do it.....bt it was my first time cookin all this...n the soup is really nice to drink~` maybe it's just the brand tt is gd......but i estimate the right amount of water!! hahaha~` n i stir it well.....keke~~~ It is not an easy job to cook in this super hot afteroon....but it feels so nice when i see him so happy with the dishes i prepared~~ haha~~ he bought me egg tarts for my breakfast nxt day and bubble tea too~~ thanks~~
Oh ya~` and beside the dishes~ as usual there is a card for him~~ but not as nice as the first 2 months~~ becuz i felt as time goes.....it's really the thought tt matters~` as in i wont put aside my books and hw ...n spends days n long hours doin his card..... but the love is dere~the xingyi is still dere:) besides~~ i noe he would be v ahppy to see those dishes~:P but i mus really apologised for the awful pasta! Probably the worst pasta in singapore:P
We just spend the rest of the day in hall............ den he gotta leave back hall.....somehow there is something really missing.....and i felt rather empty and disappointed............................ feel better after i have a walk and a good talk with him to the bus stop..... think we have somehow wasted the hours we had tgt....... but there be more months n years coming..hopefully :)
*~ Understandings...~*
Been really busy these few days....find it hard to catch up with my work.....and i have been rather inefficient in my studies........... sigh...............
felt rather demoralised sometimes and meeting with dar do perks me up abit.....but he gonna get busy nxt week when tutorial classes start~` and his workload be busy~` but we can always do our hw tgt~~ and we could jus meet for short dinneror smth~~ its about making an effort :)
I dont know y.....although miraclly i didnt fall aslp during lessons.....but my notes are in a mess.....n everytime i wanted to study.....i need a long time to concentrate....think the study momentum aint totally back yet..... feel the workload this year is rather heavy........n i must really worked hard......finish my tut religiously.....so there be no more C on my result slip....
but am really stressed sometimes like i wanted to do my hw....or rest after long long hours of lessons.....i be asked to go down for hall events.....i dont like to compare with others.... sometimes i am really not energetic for other stuffs like this....jus wanna rest well....and study...... but ppl would think its cuz i need to tak to dar...... but we only talked after i dinished my work....and occasionally he will called to check if i am doin my work.....or did i fall aslp.....and asked me not to be too stress n all..... den he will put down the phone n let me continue with my work.... it is no wonder ppl will think y i can fork out time ot have late lunch with him.....but nt for hall events.....but i need to eat anyway....... and we only met for like 1 hour plus.........but i mus admit there are times when we sort of have conflicts on the phone....we wld jus hold on to the phone for hours......with silence here n dere....n i be affected....n not do my stuffs efficiently..... n thus sometimes i stressed myself when i gotta hand in hw tml n all....
everytime there is a hall event....or any form of gathering....i feel stressed....cuz if i dont go....i dont know if my fren be sad....or unhappy................ sometimes i really dont feel like gg....n i feel stressed about it...... it was ok...when i myself feel like going~~ but it was rather rare these few days cuz i really stone and couldnt absorb anything the teacher said......and i need more tim,e to settle down n do my stuffs..............................
i really need understandings......... i dont want to compare myself to any other couples....becuz every r/s consists of two diff parties with diff characters,thinkings and all......every r/s gotta be different and its no point comparin one to another like that.... hais.... i am jus stressed.... and i really need understandings....................
even dar makes me upset sometimes.... i felt i am afraid of him sometimes n i hate that feeeling.....i know he really care for me.....but i guess care n conquer is jus a thin line diff....i felt not understood sometimes........and i just hope that my frens will give me their understandings....and he will as well~~` loving some one is not just about having that someone..... Nonetheless....no one is perfect.... and i would still love him regardlss wat.....i jus hope for more understandings....to make me less stressful........
And to make myself less stressful....i have decided there is only a few things i want now~~
* I need my studies be on the right track and no more Cs on my result slip~
* I really need my dar...
* I only need a few important friends in my life.... like gmp n tk peeps like meiting, sooyun, dawn, mingqi, suqi....etc...
* of cuz.....i need my family and i cant possible do without dem~
* i need good health
* i need understandings...........................
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ME: JuanZ | TKSS,NYJC,NTU | First crY: 19th Nov 86' |
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